I do not own any rights to any of these images posted unless stated otherwise.Tumblr (3.0; @13ean)http://13ean.tumblr.com/<p>Latte to escape from the rain. This is a good day :)</p>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/24282577631http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/24282577631Sat, 02 Jun 2012 16:40:12 -0400<p>Why do I do this to myself? Deliberately torture myself with the hideous truth of the past. Why, why can I not live in the now and enjoy what it is now, rather than painfully keep myself locked into what once was. </p> <p>I&#8217;m breaking myself down, and I have no one to blame but myself :(</p>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/22243621086http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/22243621086Wed, 02 May 2012 02:01:12 -0400<p>Somedays you say you wanna leave. Somedays I wish you would. It would be so much easier knowing YOU hurt me.</p>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/19087777549http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/19087777549Sat, 10 Mar 2012 19:29:59 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m0ku9lkESB1qitawxo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/19055624817http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/19055624817Sat, 10 Mar 2012 08:50:22 -0500<p>I will be so very sad once I have to start sleeping in bed alone again. I have loved the past few months of being cuddled every night, and waking up beside him for kisses in the morning. <br/> But I cannot deny that it will be worth the money and the change in lifestyle. I want a better future for us and our family. I am so glad we are finally here.</p>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/19040168378http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/19040168378Fri, 09 Mar 2012 23:06:13 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ltf8auISDl1qzpe8uo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17971094562http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17971094562Mon, 20 Feb 2012 17:14:18 -0500<p>That feeling I&#8217;ve gotten so good at knowing. I&#8217;ve mastered being okay this way.</p>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17970703763http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17970703763Mon, 20 Feb 2012 17:08:06 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lzppg8KBeP1qithlvo1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17970656914http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17970656914Mon, 20 Feb 2012 17:07:20 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lzi3q0azEF1r9lajro1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>This is so romantic. I want a bath now. I haven’t had a bath in a year, somehow having a bath alone isn’t fun after you’ve had one with someone. Maybe I’ll break my streak and try one tonight once my little man is in bed.</p>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17915921007http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17915921007Sun, 19 Feb 2012 19:51:37 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lzjv7pPnw31qitawxo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17915271994http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17915271994Sun, 19 Feb 2012 19:40:23 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lznyw5bsON1qithlvo1_400.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Totally have a whole pumpkin pie and tub of cool whip in my fridge right now, waiting for me to eat the shit out of it.<br/><br/>Nomnomnomnomnom.</p>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17911570576http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17911570576Sun, 19 Feb 2012 18:36:05 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lz6qq98r2g1qa4xk2o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Super cutttte.</p>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17891228824http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17891228824Sun, 19 Feb 2012 12:47:09 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lzn5og0shi1qdupuko5_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lzn5og0shi1qdupuko1_400.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lzn5og0shi1qdupuko2_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lzn5og0shi1qdupuko3_400.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lzn5og0shi1qdupuko4_400.jpg"/><br/> <br/>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17891120923http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17891120923Sun, 19 Feb 2012 12:45:08 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lzniig9acH1qithlvo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17890970384http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17890970384Sun, 19 Feb 2012 12:42:16 -0500<p>Valentine&#8217;s Day is gone and passed and I spent it with the love of my life, my son.<br/>One day when he is old enough I&#8217;ll make him buy my flowers and chocolate. Yes, I&#8217;ll still be eating chocolate years from now because I came to a realisation - no one cares what weight I am. It doesn&#8217;t matter if I go back to my pre-pregnancy weight because no one is gonna notice. No one except me. And that fact right there, is far too depressing to keep me motivated on my diet.<br/><br/>I spent most of my pregnancy terrified of what my pregnancy would leave my body looking like, and I have to admit that it&#8217;s not nearly as bad as I had imagined. I mean, I&#8217;ll actually be able to wear a bikini again. I have no extreme amount of stretch marks, mind you they are there. I just wish someone would love my body again. I&#8217;m so proud of what it did for me, bringing my beautiful healthy son into this world and nourishing him for 9 months, but I don&#8217;t love the way it is because no one tells me it&#8217;s beautiful. Deep down inside I severley want to believe it is.</p>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17890597181http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17890597181Sun, 19 Feb 2012 12:35:22 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lzmcpiNzN31qlzi12o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17890056495http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17890056495Sun, 19 Feb 2012 12:25:15 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lzix7gw3ww1rphup8o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Soo terrible.</p>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17889963167http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17889963167Sun, 19 Feb 2012 12:23:28 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lznfecOQzH1qithlvo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>I’m so obsessed with lipstick lately. I just bought the 24 hour lipwear and it’s AMAZING. A real bitch to get off though, but for me that’s okay because I’d rather be wearing lipstick that wont get all over my son since he is in my arms basically always.</p>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17887498467http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17887498467Sun, 19 Feb 2012 11:35:00 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lzlodqQi8K1qithlvo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>How my breakfast shake ended up. Went grocery shopping last night so I could buy strawberries and bananas to make my meal shakes more bearable. Well it worked, they taste a lot better, the 1/3 I got to drink anyways. The rest ended up in my clean dish water and all over my counter. <br/><br/>Just a typical start to my wonderful day.<br/>Bentley is being extra needy today and doesn’t want to let me out of his sight. Which is pretty much impossible for me since I am a human being and have things to do to keep his day going as well as mine, but to him I am just mommy. Mommy is a magician apparently.<br/>My little man is 11 weeks old (OMG) today. Where does the time go?</p>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17830813046http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17830813046Sat, 18 Feb 2012 12:53:49 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lz5yquvmts1qbqq8zo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>My fav.</p>http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17829263618http://13ean.tumblr.com/post/17829263618Sat, 18 Feb 2012 12:24:16 -0500